Sudhanshu Pandey recently posed for a special Maha Shivratri photoshoot, appearing in the striking Ardhanari avatar — a symbolic representation embodying both Shiva and Shakti. Reflecting on the experience, the actor describes it as nothing short of surreal.

Speaking about how the concept came to life, he shares that the idea was suggested by a makeup artist. “Everybody knows my association with Lord Shiva. I had completely surrendered myself to Mahakal,” he says.

Recalling his reaction during the transformation, he adds, “We began with the Shakti makeup. When she started working on my eyeliner, eyebrows, and eyelashes, I said, ‘My God, I’m falling in love with myself.’”

When asked whether he felt any hesitation about embracing a feminine form, he says, “Not at all. I believe it takes courage to own that side. I am an actor, and portraying diverse characters is part of my journey. But this was different — I was creating Shiv Shakti. For someone who has surrendered to him, it was perhaps the greatest honour. I was simply nervous, hoping everything would turn out well.”

Despite his deep connection with Shiva, he reveals that he has consistently turned down offers to portray the deity on screen. “I never wanted to play Shiva because he is someone I have surrendered to. I’ve been offered the role countless times, but I always declined. I don’t have the guts to play you,” he explains.

Will this photoshoot change his decision? Pandey remains firm. “No, it won’t. This was purely a tribute from a small being created by him — someone completely surrendered. That was my offering, and perhaps that is part of my bhakti,” he signs off.